slowlorislow:

Parasol just recorded a new LP this past couple of weekends.

I have been thinking so much, right?

Like about everything. All these big changes and disruptions and watching my friends crumble under them, or grow big despite them. Finding happiness, a silver lining, or just breaking apart. Trying to hold it together or at least look like they are.

I have been thinking a lot about how we present ourselves to others. How we want people to see us as we ourselves want to be. Patient, kind, listening, reliable, happy, motivated, social.

Really, we are all just barely holding it together.  Living in the moments between and saying “I am ok” to ourselves and each other.  Why don’t we all just come with a warning label already?

I have been thinking a lot about how much I love and ache for love, and worry and cry for other people constantly. That I do this because I have been socialized to be this way. To worry and care, not about myself, but about and for others. I am to driven to want them to know I am there and can be there. I want to connect and let them know they are amazing and wish they saw that, and am beside myself when that isn’t working. Why is my love not enough? (working on my shit)

More than anything I want them to know that they are not weak for barely holding on. For running away when things change or get remotely difficult.

I want them to remember that we live in a world that fucks us up before we even take our first breath. That we can’t get help from the systems that are supposed to help us, and that we are taught not to rely on each other. We are socialized to wall up and not be vulnerable. We are not allowed to be open about what we are struggling with or talk about the shit we carry around with us every day. We are a burden to all and to ourselves. How do we carry that weight?

Present the self as you wish to be seen.

This song is all that.

15 Aug 2014 / Reblogged from slowlorislow with 16 notes

classickk:

chelseadirck:

ignorerocknrollheroes:

Available now at: Hubba Hubba 2 Ellery st. Cambridge (off Mass ave. Between Central and Harvard sq.) courtesy of:
IGNORE ROCK’N’ROLL HEROES

GOTTA GET THIS TAPE! If you want one and don’t live in Boston, I am very willing to buy and mail you one. 

peerrrrrrfffffffffff

wow this looks sooooo good

classickk:

chelseadirck:

ignorerocknrollheroes:

Available now at: Hubba Hubba 2 Ellery st. Cambridge (off Mass ave. Between Central and Harvard sq.) courtesy of:

IGNORE ROCK’N’ROLL HEROES

GOTTA GET THIS TAPE! If you want one and don’t live in Boston, I am very willing to buy and mail you one. 

peerrrrrrfffffffffff

wow this looks sooooo good

8 Aug 2014 / Reblogged from classickk with 32 notes

Anonymous asked: How are you so good looking

the weed did it

6 Aug 2014 / 6 notes

down with the sickness but also with this lil guy #adaisacat #ada420

down with the sickness but also with this lil guy #adaisacat #ada420

3 Aug 2014 / 7 notes / ada420 adaisacat 

fatsizedcoffin:

fed up fest day 2

burial permit//discipline//aye nako//sorrows//curmudgeon//in school//limp wrist

30 Jul 2014 / Reblogged from fatsizedcoffin with 207 notes

fatsizedcoffin:

+HIRS+//fed up fest// 7.27.2014

30 Jul 2014 / Reblogged from fatsizedcoffin with 48 notes

Anonymous asked: Alex Beyer is such a babe town.

fatsizedcoffin:

caughtinaflood:

fatsizedcoffin:

I’m sorry, I can’t hear anything over the sound of my projectile vomiting.

gonna get serious for a second.  I wanna talk about something that I am guilty of perpetuating.  I get a lot of attention because of the way I look, and though it’s flattering as all hell, especially because I’ve struggled with body issues since I was like 14 and continue to do so, a lot of the attention I get comes from being a white, skinny person, with blue eyes and blonde hair.  I think that we can all work to challenge our desires more, especially in more radical scenes, of how we still cultivate western beauty standards in our communities and how it gives privilege to people that have those certain qualities.  someone articulated this way better than I ever could and I’m going to quote them: “Not only we do need to actually start recognizing that fat people (on a spectrum of course) are subjected to numerous levels of violence, but how even in our sub cultural isolated lives, we perpetuate harmful beauty standards that perpetuate sexism, misogyny, trans misogyny and white supremacy. When will my friends, partners, sweeties, and crushes stop only just dating skinny people? When will medical institutions recognize eating disorders in overweight people instead of encouraging it? When will people stop telling me ‘oh you’re cute but I’d personally never want to be your size’. If you only desire skinny people, and haven’t critically looked at how your desire functions and has been constructed. You are a part of the problem. You are apart of the war on all of our bodies.”

that being said, I think we can all look at why we deem certain people attractive and certain people “unattractive”.  I’m guilty of perpetuating it and want to work harder against it.  

it feels really good for people to say that I’m cute or good looking, but I’m also a person too.  I’d rather be known for qualities of mine (good or bad), rather than just my physical appearance.

Hi, hello. I’m going to keep talking about this because it’s fucking important, and none of y’all seem to be taking it seriously.

This past weekend I attended Fed Up Fest, a punk fest highlighting queer and trans folks in punk. Although I had an incredible time, I realized that the only reason I was generally anxiety-free was that before I even got there I had resigned myself from being cruised or hit on, because I knew I wouldn’t be. I was right. Now, with that in mind think about how over the course of the weekend I was told how two of my most fit and thin friends were “so hot” at least a half dozen times, heard stories about my thinner friends hooking up with “mega babes” all weekend, and even got a fucking anonymous message about how hot one of the most conventionally attractive, most swooned over people I know is a “babe town” whatever the fuck that even means. It gets fucking old.

Yeah, those people are attractive, I get it. But what about all of the incredible fat people who were in the same space this weekend? What about the fat people in our communities who are still experiencing fatphobia in our radical spaces on top of dealing with this shit in the “real world”?

There was a wonderful performance and Q&A given by Gus dealing with fatphobia, and within five minutes of being in the room I was in tears. Seeing another fat person stand up in front of a room dominated by thin bodies and real talk y’all about how your fatphobia fucking hurts was enough to turn me into a giant gooey baby for half an hour. But, even though the room was full of bodies, I can’t help but wonder if you all are actually listening? Why aren’t you talking about it? Why aren’t you trying to change the way you think about and desire different bodies? Why is “I can’t help who I’m attracted to” still a thing people think is legitimate?

Basically, what I’m trying to say is that you skinny radical punks need to get your shit together, recognize these problems in your communities and spaces, and do something about it.

reblogging again because what Mary said is so important, and that being a skinny radical person I need to try harder than I have been to challenge fatphobia.

30 Jul 2014 / Reblogged from fatsizedcoffin with 127 notes

Anonymous asked: Alex Beyer is such a babe town.

fatsizedcoffin:

I’m sorry, I can’t hear anything over the sound of my projectile vomiting.

gonna get serious for a second.  I wanna talk about something that I am guilty of perpetuating.  I get a lot of attention because of the way I look, and though it’s flattering as all hell, especially because I’ve struggled with body issues since I was like 14 and continue to do so, a lot of the attention I get comes from being a white, skinny person, with blue eyes and blonde hair.  I think that we can all work to challenge our desires more, especially in more radical scenes, of how we still cultivate western beauty standards in our communities and how it gives privilege to people that have those certain qualities.  someone articulated this way better than I ever could and I’m going to quote them: “Not only we do need to actually start recognizing that fat people (on a spectrum of course) are subjected to numerous levels of violence, but how even in our sub cultural isolated lives, we perpetuate harmful beauty standards that perpetuate sexism, misogyny, trans misogyny and white supremacy. When will my friends, partners, sweeties, and crushes stop only just dating skinny people? When will medical institutions recognize eating disorders in overweight people instead of encouraging it? When will people stop telling me ‘oh you’re cute but I’d personally never want to be your size’. If you only desire skinny people, and haven’t critically looked at how your desire functions and has been constructed. You are a part of the problem. You are apart of the war on all of our bodies.”

that being said, I think we can all look at why we deem certain people attractive and certain people “unattractive”.  I’m guilty of perpetuating it and want to work harder against it.  

it feels really good for people to say that I’m cute or good looking, but I’m also a person too.  I’d rather be known for qualities of mine (good or bad), rather than just my physical appearance.

29 Jul 2014 / Reblogged from fatsizedcoffin with 127 notes

fatsizedcoffin:

peeple’ watchin’//fed up fest//7.27.2014

<3

29 Jul 2014 / Reblogged from fatsizedcoffin with 28 notes

darbysouth:

fatsizedcoffin:

anomaly//fed up fest//7.27.2014

me in the right top corner!

where’s taylor?

29 Jul 2014 / Reblogged from darbysouth with 66 notes